Hollaaaaa!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-09T23:30:29Z

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i dono if anyone even still reads this journal- but i really want somone to help me make my other journal, Kylee1226, like this one but different pictures. please. comment or IM me- Kylee1226. ill pay. thanx ♥
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wierd...

2004-12-03T23:17:09Z

everything seems okay for a while then BAM it hits me, and its like WHOA whered that come from? AH i hate this!- that made no sense but i seem to keep doin that today, o well.

cant wait till im off grounding!!! AHHHH!

<3

he's kinda cute

2004-12-03T19:57:17Z

do i like him? ekk kinda nervouse to say. . . not already?!?! i dono if i can, i dont trust. am i just telln myself i do, or do i really? Ah i love this part of it, the beggining. . . kinda exciting!

couple of you know who im talkin about. . . otherwise this makes NO sense, haha sorry!

HEY ASS WHOLES- COMMENT. . .

2004-12-03T19:47:14Z

got a new journal- kylee1226
pretty simple but comment on it to be added. and PLEASE SOMONE help me make it all pretty like this one!
i dono why i even write in these damn things when like only the same 3 people comment all the time... argh, annoying... i guess im not interesting enough. BLAH!

im in such a good mood today! SO NICE

2004-12-01T20:58:36Z

whew

been interesting past couple days

last night i went to the Phil and saw Riverdance, now your prbly thinkn, wow thats gay, but NO it was AWESOME! omg! i wana go see it again! it was so cool!

got some stuff cleard up, hopfully itll last this time. so happy how things are turning out for me. *sigh*

today i dont work, suprising, i know! so nice to relax!

13 DAYS TILL MY GROUNDINGS OVER!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!!!! cant wait!!!! then its PARTAYY TIME!! AH!

SO bummed i cant go to the show friday to see Trav, Kurt and everyone play, AH! Travis sayd they had a plan to bail me out tho, haha cant wait! and im SUPER bummed i cant go to the conert with Lara. . :( ERR!

i guess now im starting to work more hours at the Swan River, thats cool, nice to get a little more money. but sux i have no more time for me. but that wont be such a prblem once im outa the park.

24 DAYS TILL X-MAS! 25 DAYS TILL MY B-DAY!!!

somone PLEASE, i made a new journal but i wana get some pictures on it! like this one but different and i dono how, ill give yah $10!!!! PLEASE!

okay well im out, HOLLLLLLLLA!

<3 xoxo

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-30T14:42:00

2004-11-30T19:47:49Z

OKAY
you all think i care, and the thing is i could care less, stop tryn to make drama, its uneeded. . im happy im outa this shit finally, its such a relief. yeah i made a mistake and i shoulda listend to some people, but thats my mistake, everyone makes them. enough, im done with this shit, moving on and gettin outa this damn rut.

whew

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-21T20:09:00

2004-11-22T01:12:20Z

my worst nightmare- now reality. . .

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-21T18:19:00

2004-11-21T23:24:00Z

. . . why?

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-20T12:37:00

2004-11-20T17:52:59Z

[x] Name: Kylee
[x] Birthdate: Dec, 26
[x] Birthplace: Naples
[x] Current Location: Naples
[x] Eye Color: blue-green
[x] Hair Color: blonde
[x] Righty or Lefty: righty
[x] Zodiac Sign: Capercorn

------------DESCRIBE---------------
[x] Biggest Fear: not living life to the fullest
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: hey
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: its already morning?????
[x] First feature you notice in the opposite sex: hair
[x] Your best physical feature: hair i guess
[x] Your bedtime: usually 10 or so
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or coke: coke
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: Mc.D's
[x] Single or group dates: both are nice
[x] Adidas or Nike: adidas
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino

-------------DO YOU-----------------
[x] Cuss: sometimes
[x] Take a shower everyday: yeah
[x] Want to go to college: yeah
[x] Want to get married: yeah thatd be nice
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: i dono
[x] Get motion sickness: sumtimes
[x] Think you're a health freak: haha no
[x] Get along with your parents: somtimes
[x] Like thunderstorms: yeahhh
[x] Play an instrument: a little guitar and some piano

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Go to the mall: yea
[x] Eaten sushi: yeah
[x] Been on stage: nope
[x] Been dumped: . . . kinda
[x] Gone skating: nope
[x] Made homemade cookies: nope
[x] Dyed your hair: nope
[x] Stolen anything: a hug :D

-------------HAVE YOU EVER----------------
[x] Flown on a plane: yeah
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: nope
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yeah
[x] Cried during a Movie?: yeah
[x] Had an imaginary friend: no
[x] Cut your hair: yeah
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: ew no
[x] Been in a fight: haha not really

----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: whenver its right
[x] Numbers and Names of Children: 2, i dono names
[x] Descibe your Dream Wedding: outside at night under the stars
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: not sure
[x] What country would you most like to visit?: dono

---------------NUMBER OF----------------
[x] Number of CDs that I own: too many to count
[x] Number of piercings: none
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: a couple times
[x] Number of scars on my body: too many to count
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: a lot

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Wearing: bathing suit, sweater, skirt
[x] Thinking about: . . . stuff

-----------IN THE LAST 24 HRS--------------
[x] Cried: yeah
[x] Worn jeans: yeah
[x] Met someone new online: no
[x] Done laundry: yeah
[x] Drove a car : yeah
[x] Talked on the phone: yeah

-------------FRIENDS AND LIFE---------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: no
[x] Who have you known the longest of your friends?: uhm brit and brooke
[x] Are you close to any family members? mom and sister
[x] When have you cried the most?: the past 2 weeks
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: being truly loved and NOT fucked with. . .

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-20T10:13:00

2004-11-20T15:28:24Z

AHH I LOVE MY NEW ICON!! YEEEEE! haha

well things have been doin really good lately, its nice. working a lot but it all payd off when i got my pay checks, YEAH! **Cha CHing!!** haha i think my parents are finally lettn up on my grounding alittle, i got to go out for a little last night after work, me n erica went to the park to get my pay check, hahaha, then went to starbucks met up with david, pickel, and johnny and hung out there for a few, and then erica took me home, rockn out the whole way, haha it was nice hangn out with her, i havnt done that in awhile, it was fun, i feel so free now, i dont really know why, cause its not like i was ever held down but life just seems easier now. i dono its wierd. things are truning out okay. well okay i gata go help my mom get ready for all my family to come in town, see yah all later! HOLLA!

xoxo

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-15T14:35:00

2004-11-15T19:41:20Z

well been interesting past few days, gettin threw one day at a time. just keepn a smile on. i love my friends, there so awesome. things are startn to loook up for me, i think ill be okay, haha. alright well time to get ready for work. adois.

-keep your fingers crossed that i get off grounding soon so i can make a couple trips! yeee

xox

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-13T12:32:00

2004-11-13T17:36:35Z

I NEED SOMONE TO HELP ME RE-DO MY JOURNAL, TAKE SOME PICTURES OFF, PUT SOME ON! PLEASE! $10! . . . PLEASE! ASAP!

bored

2004-11-13T15:52:58Z

maybe you we'r right. . im sorry

2004-11-13T15:34:07Z

why do i sit and cry and beg for you back when your the one who FUCKED UP!?!?!? shouldnt it be the other way around. . you say you feel a certain way. . SHOW ME!

its killing me

I FUCKIN HATE YOU!

word of wisdom-
NEVER make promises you cant keep! it will always hurt somone in the end, wether its you or somone else, its not fair.

its really happening. . . why?

2004-11-13T15:27:55Z

I've learned....
That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned...
That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned....
That money doesn't buy class.

I've learned....
That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned...
That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned....
That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I've learned....
That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned...
That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned....
That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I've learned....
That there's nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.

I've learned....
That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned...
That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned...
That I wish I could have told those I cared about that I love them one more time before they passed away.

I've learned.. ..
That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned....
That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I've learned....
That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned ...
That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.

I've learned....
That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

**************

I've learned....
That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned....
That I choose how I feel, and what I do about it.

I've learned....
That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned....
That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned....
That love, not time, heals all wounds.

pretty icon!

2004-11-12T20:55:36Z

wow, this is so wierd. . .

i dono if im liking it tho.

ARGH, i HATE change!

why do you do this to me?

2004-11-08T19:52:40Z

FUCK THE WORLD, EVERYONE NEEDS TO DIE!!! NOTHING IS FAIR!!!

dare_to_fly @ 2004-11-02T14:39:00

2004-11-02T19:47:37Z

hey there, havnt updated in awhile, well my life is still over, but right now im home and my parents arnt so i thought i would take advantage, well lifes pretty damn boring now, plus im sick on top of it, wich really sux.

i really miss a certain somone right now. this sux SO bad.

well i missed out on Homecoming eveything! Olympics, game, and dance! AH i hate my parents!

well anyway, im gana go back to hibernation.

bye

dare_to_fly @ 2004-10-27T12:31:00

2004-10-27T16:35:57Z

wow well it looks like that changed, holy shit, my lifes over, talk to you guys in a couple months! dont bother calling either, EVERYTHINGS gone! so this will be my last entry for awhile.

miss you ALL. .

pray i dont die from boredom

been awhile

2004-10-25T21:28:02Z

. . . so much has happend to me in the past few days. life is NUTTS!

okay well for one i fuckin miss Sable SO much! HOLY SHIT, i cant stand this shit anymore.
i have felt so wierd lately its like i dont give a fuck about anyone or anything, i dont get excited about goin out and havn fun or get upset, its like im just empty inside, no feelings, nothing, and i just always wana cry, FOR NO GOD DAMN REASON! my mom and sable say im deppresse, but i have nothing to be deppressed about (up until today) but, im doing pretty good in school, i have 2 jobs, gettin payd good, makn new and maken old freinds again. just moving on from my little box that involved one thing. not that that one thing doesnt mean anything to me anymore its just time for me to start making a new life outside of it. make myslef happy again. well obviously theres somthin going wrong casue i seriously dont give a shit about anything! and i HATE it! i hate not caring about anyones problems or even my own prblems. i almost messed up the GREATEST thing i have right now, and i was so scared when i relised what i was doing. i cant loose that. but all this is probly just a stupid stage ill get threw. no biggie.
and now the worst part, i went to Laras Saturday night and chilled there, got my mind off some stuff, and hung out with a bunch of people, well that didnt go to well, we got caught, and Laras dad called my mom and dad and ericas parents and told then EVRYTHING! how i drink and how hes NEVER in town when i go there and how iv been basicly lieing to my parents for the past like 10 months, HORRIBLE! so i had to admit EVRYTHIN to my parents, i was SO scared but suprisingly they werent that mad, they acted like theyv known the whole time and told me i wouldnt be normal if i hadnt adventured into that stuff, and i think thats pretty fuckin awesome! so im pretty damn lucky at the moment. im really hopeing Laras having the same luck that i am! Plus im SUPPOSED to go to Homecoming wich i prbly will still do and then the next weekend Tallahasee, but not too sure thats happening now.
everything will work out Lara, dont give up!
alright, im out.

dare_to_fly @ 2004-10-23T11:06:00

2004-10-23T15:23:39Z

hey
well last night i went to the game

Naples vs. Barron
we kickd Barrons ass, just the way it should be, 24-3. HA!

anyway wow i had the worst night sleep ever! i had so many dreams it was wierd!
but the worst one i had was horrible! MY DAD DIED! and i remeber in my dream laying in my empty room on the floor crying and saying over and over again "i dont have a dad anymore, i dont have a dad anymore" and thinking about how hes never coming back and how one day hes supposed to be there and walk me down the isle at my wedding and grow old with my mom, it was horrible! i woke up cryn until i fell back asleep and woke up this morning and started cryn again. it really helpd me relise, no matter how much i may think i hate my parents, i could never live without them.

yeah so anyway, today i was gana go to the beach but i dont think ill have time before work so ill prbly go tan in my back yard. Adios.

xoxo

fuck it

2004-10-21T19:57:38Z

hello world
is this really gana work? im starting not to think so. maybe everyone was right. GOD i hate sayn that! it hurts me too much, all i wana do is cry,my heart is breaking, he doesnt even know it, everything is great but hes to damn far away and he doesnt understand what its doing to me.

homecomings coming up, a few choices, but nothing seems to be working out,
1- go to homecoming with erica
2- go to homecoming by myself
3- go to homecoming with sable if he can get off work and wants to
3- go to Tall and see him there
4- have a normal boring weekend doing nothing once again

all these have thier own little catches that make them not really work out. lucky me, nothings workin out, is 'this' even gana work out. is it worth me sittin around and being sad all the time? am i really letting it hold me back, am i living my sophmore year to the fullest, i dont think so. mabye hes right, maybe everyones right, damnit, lifes hard enough, why does the only good thing in it have to go wrong? i love him so much, i really think i love him. . .

please, what do i do?

dare_to_fly @ 2004-10-21T10:31:00

2004-10-21T14:34:13Z

im so sick of having so many feelings and no way for you to understand them.

dare_to_fly @ 2004-10-20T20:41:00

2004-10-21T00:49:00Z

my fortune cookie:

Soon you will be sitting on top of the world!

cool little thing i hurd:

The knowledge of death is what holds us back from living life to the fullest.

HAHAHAHA i n t e r e s t i n g. . . .

2004-10-20T23:31:31Z

American liquor manufacturers have accepted the FDA's suggestion that
>the following warning labels be placed immediately on all varieties of
>alcohol containers:
>
> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may leave you
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> > >wondering what the hell happened to your bra and
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> > >panties.
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> > >~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may make you think
>
> > >you are whispering when you are not.
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> > >~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol is a major factor
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> > >in dancing like a retard.
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> > >~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause ! you to
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> > >tell your friends over and over again that you love
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> > >them.
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> > >~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause you to
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> > >think you can sing.
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> > >~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may lead you to
>
> > >believe that ex-lovers are really dying for you to
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> > >telephone them at four in the morning.
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> > >~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may make you think
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> > >you can logically converse with members of the
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> > >opposite sex without spitting.
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> > >~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may create the
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> > >illusion that you are tougher, smarter, faster ! and
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> > >better looking than most people.
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may lead you to
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> > >think people are laughing WITH you.
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause
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> > >pregnancy.
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> > >WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may be a major
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> > >WARNING: the crumsumpten of alcohol may Mack you tink
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